Nutshell

First I was miserable, kicked around by life’s circumstances or by other people; like a mouse being batted by a cat.

Then, I realized that I had personal power and I could change my situations, relationships, my financial situation… I could change it all.

So I changed things, many times before I realized no matter how many problems I solved, fights I won, successes I had…I was never satisfied for long.

I realized I could spend my whole life looking for the right job, the next relationship, the right diet, etc.

Then I stopped running from my fears, stopped chasing the carrots and decided to stick with the life situation I was in. Fully emerging myself in it and accept it completely. Using it like a school. Learning to focus on how I respond to my circumstances no matter what they bring.

When I finally saw things that way and practiced what I learned… ironically that is when things began to change in my favor. Ironic because I completely detached from the circumstances.

This was nice, but ultimately didn’t matter because whatever the positive or negative situation – it will eventually change. This is the nature of this impermanent reality.

All that truly matters is being the state of loving presence in this world.

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One thought on “Nutshell

  1. It took me awhile to accept my own circumstances, I personally think that is part of maturing. I learned to live in the moment & it’s a good way to live. I like that you are aware of self & that you are always contemplating what’s right for you. I also think writing/journaling is a wonderful way of discovering yourself & helps to ground a person.

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